Boys... the Hot Heartbreaker or Average Looking Lover

Ever wondered why those movies always start with the beautiful girl, confident as she may be, never doubting herself as she walks down the street? She looks fabulous, she looks happy, and she might be on her phone laughing. Why is it that those romantic comedies always start out this way?

Because they are about to crush your vision of beauty by entering a handsome man. Yep, insert tall, dark and handsome. Girl's naturally are attracted to beautiful girls. We are friends with those who look nice, and we watch lots and lots of movies about that really refreshing, kind of down to earth, but breath taking beauty. But, we are women... and naturally, the majority of us are attracted to that beautiful man. So insert really good looking guy, and that image of beauty is a lost thought as we focus on the guy. Also insert the great looking guy's naturally overconfident cocky self. Yet, we still fight for him, wanting him to change his ways so he can fall in love with that beautiful girl that he just heart broke. Yep. Men kind of suck. In real life too.

I am going to be honest, a lot of my friends are married. To decent looking guys. Not Clark Kent turns to Superman kind of guys, but just Clark looking guys. Good looks to their girls, but nothing so heartbreaking that they make every woman in a room turn. I think each of my friends has found the perfect guy for them. They may not be super models, or super tall. Super rich or super stable, but they are the perfect guy for my friends. Mostly, these are average guys, with some dashing pheromone that just attracted my friends like bees to flowers.

So here is the big kicker... why are all of the average guys married, while my very very good looking guy friends are not? It doesn't seem to be a problem for girls to get married, plain or perfect, my girlfriends all get married eventually. However, the guys they marry either compliment them or under shadow them. Never have my girlfriends been overshadowed by the pure good looks of their significant others. Is this a trend? Should I be looking for the not so perfect guy? Is the average joe going to be the perfect marriage material to me?

I am going to blunt, I have some very good looking male friends. Some of them, well, I would marry if it were determined by looks. Most of them are nearing 30 or already there... and yet none of them have married, and reality is, none of them are even close. Why are the most gorgeous looking guys I know, still single?

Probably because there is some tragic flaw to them. I am betting its their brains. Yep, lets be honest, these handsome, intelligent, seemingly emotionally stable guys have something wrong with them. They have to! Otherwise, why would they still be on the market? Maybe they are looking for the perfect match to their egos, but lets be honest, there is no perfect match to that maybe they have an ideal woman in their mind, well thats the reason, they will never find her. Maybe they really are mentally unstable and I just don't know it. Guys, if you are reading this, let me know, what is the real reason that y'all are unmarried, unattached and nearing 30 or over that hill?

Because honestly... I would date you. But really, something is obviously wrong with me considering that I am still single, while the majority of my friends are not, and I think I am pretty decent looking, qualified to get an MRS degree, and somewhat intelligent. Maybe my confidence in myself is the failed point in this. Yep, it must be confidence. By George, I figured it out, being confident screws you. Everyone wants someone who is helpless, someone you can better, someone you can sort of fix. Right? Sigh, I obviously have no answers since I am still single.

Average Joes.... go along your happy ways with my seemingly gorgeous friends. Hot Heartbreakers... looks like you're stuck in a world of dashingly good looking men without eternal companions, living next door to those overly confident single female friends who you should probably be married to. I think the problem is neither one of you are seeing the bigger picture of perfection that you should probably be filling together.

Chronic Lateness

"Chronic Lateness is a way to assert control"-- Bones

So I am pretty consistent, I am never late to answer a question that I know the answer to, I am very blunt about my opinions, I am always early or directly on time where I deem it valuable for impression or value someone's time, and I am chronically late every other time.

Yes, I think I do agree with this quotation and examination by psychologists. Being chronically late really is an indirect way of asserting control. It gives you the feeling that everyone around you has no right to an opinion of what time you arrive. Many girls believe in the idea of fashionably late, which is a phrase to explain the ideal that they are to show up to an event late enough to get attention, asserting control of the room with their image.

I think I am late often as a way to assert my own control over my life. Usually I am late because I am catching up on work, or speaking with someone important or trying my best to unwind with a movie or tv show. It never is tracked back to me sitting on my bed swinging my legs, staring at the clock mindlessly trying to be tardy. So I get to control that small aspect of my life by choosing to be tardy because I want to. And sometimes, its because I just like knowing that everyone is waiting for me. That doesn't hurt my ego one bit either.

No Bang New Year

So you know that you are really lame when you are asleep in bed, in your pajamas on the 31st of December, and you wake up to a text message update from facebook and you just figured out that its new years eve, and you are staring at a clock that says 11:56 and you are not sure if that means its about to be new years eve, or its now time for for counting down the new years. So I turn on the tv, and figure out that it is now 4 minutes down to a whole new year, meaning I need to remember to change the last digit when I write the date... and here I was just remembering to change from 09 to 10.

Happy new years... one month late. I did nothing with my weekend, I sat at home and turned off the tv to pretend like it was just another day, and ignore the reality that I am about to pack up to fly to Hawaii for my best friends wedding, and my wedding plans, sit in a pile of papers in a binder, and my perfectly manicured life that I had oh but in my dreams, is totally a fog that I was required to wake up from.

There is a reason you kiss your loved on on New Years... its just makes everything better if you start your new years in love.

Oh January... where did you go?

January has blown through like the wind. It's just disappeared and now here we are in February. Not that it matters to my blog much since it seems like I am such a crappy blog updater. My life has been taken over by my life and the turnover of my new site. So much for quitting the baby business. It seems like it can never leave me and I have some deep desire to continue it. Even though it seems like it will be the one thing that I will succeed at in this world, since Law School and Med School are all tossed up in the air. It's frustrating to say the least to know that you are just good enough to get into that one school that you really don't want to go to even though to most people its better than that other school you can't seem to get into.

January, aside from the frustrations of graduate schooling, has its perks. Lots and Lots of traveling and parties. I feel like I can't stop traveling. I have spent 3 consecutive weekends away from home. And with that 3 consecutive weekends, I have contracted some awesome horrible disease that is now ravishing my body like a flesh eating virus. Great!

But I will blog about the coolest weekends in January as follows.

Cal Game Day #1 and #3

It's cal game day! It's crazy, its bustling, its full of loud screaming and lots of junk foods. It's fun and I love all of it. I went to the game with a friend of mine Mr. C, he had just returned from a mission and I am sure he enjoyed it as much as anyone would have and he seemed to have a deep love for the game and socializing as much as I did.

We won the game against UC Davis and just watched them get beat to a pulp. It was a good game and I am glad I got to make friends with someone new in the ward from this trip. Game day is always fun here at CAL.

I missed game 2 because of the Ward Yosemite Half Dome hiking trip. But it was fun and I am glad I went to that over the game. Nothing beats time doing wilderness stuff in the ward.

Game #3 was against UCLA... there is a trend with these football games I attend apparently. It was a beautiful game and I went with Turner and it was just a bunch of laughs and fun. There are personality clashes that we have, but we are great friends and I am so glad to have been able to go to the game with him.

This game was also the Homecoming game so it was twice as packed as usual for this game.

It's Been A While

It's been a while since I posted. A long while since I posted anything really worth reading. The reason being that I have experienced something life changing, yet something so small and innocent, it doesn't seem to need to be blogged about. However, I also have a new answer to what life is all about. I also have been busy with school, with life, with parties, with church, with football and luckily with the world series!

The Children

Elizabeth and Mason Kramer

Benjamin, Sophie and Henry Lee

Kian Christopher

Molly Beth

Emmalee, Emmalynn, Emmalani and Emmalia

Jennifer Ann

Faith and Patience

Emily and Lissa

Lucy, Rose, Kolbie and Kiran

Sophie, Sarah and Esmeralda

Kobi, Kadi and David James

Andrew, Aiden and Emmyleah?